it's almost Christmas ... tomorrow actually ... but why don't I fill excited? ... I actually missed the old me. to be honest I've been a wreck this year. back to be a smoker .. got reall fat (I weigh 88kg now .. bad bad bad!) ... I can't remember the last time I went to Church ... Sunday usually is bed time for me. Man!! ... why? .. lazyness I guess .. I no longer have my motorcycle ... I'm mad with my self. I used to be a tough girl and take care of my self .. but then .. I just .. argh .. you know what I want for Christmas? ... or new year present? ... be alone again, and get close to God again, like I used to. be the person that I've been raised. I missed me ... I want my life back. It doesn't mean that I don't love him anymore, I just need my life back. and be a better me.
Huaaahhh.... Senangnya hari sabtu kemaren bisa tiduran sampe puasssss.... Sabtu bangun jam 10 Pagi, trus abis mandi langsung masuk ke kamar, nyalain komputer. niatnya sih kerja, tapi ternyata malah nonton VCD... :) hue he he.... Sampe jam 1.30. niatnya sih mau siap siap latian band, tapi ternyata di SMS kak Oki, katanya Nurul (pelatihnya) nggak bisa dateng. jadi batal deh. Yah... gue terusin nonton VCDnya. Nggak lama pingkan SMS, gue disuru ke rumahnya. Jadilah gue kesana. katanya mau ditraktir sama kak nuel. Dalam mobil ada gue, Pingkan, Becky dan adik2 jalan lembang (Rizky dan Dimas), Irene , Annie , Jessica dan tentunya kak Nuel dibelakang. Kita pada pergi ke sogo Plaza Ind. makan di food court. wah sampe jam 10.30 malem. Dimarahin nggak ya sama ortunya adik2? Trus nganter gue pulang. Huaahh.... beegah rasanya! 3 hari ini gue makan banyak. Kamis, makan KFC sampe nyisa Jumat, pas pembantu masak enak. padahal baru beli bakpau A1 2 biji, sama coklat beng beng 2 batang. (rakusn
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